When nobody cares

I am so alone right now....no one is here for me at all....I have lost people who I thought were my friends and they really could care less. The pain from that kills me...I have not gotton to this point in such a long time. I can't really explain it all. I don't know why God is allowing this to happen, for everyone to not just care....to leave me. I have always been there for others and I am asking this one time for them to be there for me and they just don't care. Why do people do this? Why do they act so selfish? So prideful? I get so fed up with trying, and I have tried and tried and they just don't care. I don't understand this at all, actually....I do, God wants me to get closer to Him and not rely so much on people. Yet it is so hard....when people hate you....or talk bad about you.
Different devotions and sermons are all coming to mind but there are just those times when Saten is attacking you. I prayed the other day that God will have me suffer for Him and I think it is happening. I was afraid to pray that prayer for what it entails. Yet I wanted to get closer to God, I wanted to draw near to Him. Many people wouldn't consider suffering just physical but I think that Saten tries to get to me through people because that is my stregth and weakness at the same time. I hate it when people don't like me or are upset with me. I can't stand it either when they talk behind my back and don't communicate to me what is on there mind. Anyway, my venting is over.....