screaming inside

I feel like I am screaming inside
So many emotions
So many feelings
Bad and Good
I feel so incrediably vunerable right now
That I can be torn into two with a snap of a finger
I don't know what to say
I don't know what to write
All I want to do is scream
because inside I am screaming inside
I don't know what the right thing to do is
I don't know what the right thing is to say
I want to just sit back and let it happen the right way
Can that happen without my intervening?
I feel like I am screaming inside
I can't keep this all inside
I can't bottle it up anymore
It will be out.....
Tomorrow.....


"Oh Lord I pray that you give me wisdom.....give him peace.....give me the words to say.....give me the strength to take what he may say.....what he may do.....I give all to You now dear Jesus.....I lay it in Your Hands....and in no one else's.....in Your's.....because you are the Lover of my Soul.....You fill my cup....."