Open and Close

A heart is open
Another is closed
A heart is hurt
Another is as well
One desires honestly
The other closure
One heart seeks for vunderability
Another heart seeks for pertection
A heart is open
Another is closed
But how will these hearts ever love again?
If one is closed off
And the other is willing to share?

That is the key
two hearts can't love if both are closed
One heart can love and the other not
But the unloved heart will break
Until it is no longer a heart
but nothing but pieces
Both hearts must be open
Both hearts must be honest
Both hearts must share
Both hearts must speak
Both hearts must listen
One heart is open
Another is closed

I pray for an open heart, no matter how closed other hearts may be
And I pray for strength to bear the pain of a closed off heart
I pray that I may be an open heart
Just as Jesus had an open heart to the world
He was hurt
He was humiliated
He was tortured
He was killed
I pray for the love that He gave, not only to a few selected individuals
But to the entire world
I open my heart, I don't hide it or cover it up
I open to my heart to love

I say this with apprehension
Maybe its not good to open my heart
But I have no peace with it closed
Maybe closed to a few
And open to others

A heart is open
Another is closed...

I prayed hard for you

Sometimes I wonder "why?"
Sometimes I wonder, "can it really be this hard?"
It makes me think
It makes me want to help
but then I ask myself "why?"
They can't change
Only you can

Sometimes I wonder, "why am I holding on?"
When it seems so hopeless
Then I am answered with "pray for him"
Then I realize, "I can help"

I fall to my knees
Tears stream from my eyes
my heart aches with pain for Him
and now I can say, "I prayed for you"
But what with that?
Can I say, "I prayed hard for you"?
I desire to be of assitence, yet I myself desire not to be destroyed

I am answered with "pray for him"
So when the times are hard
when I begin to ask myself "why?" or "when?" or "how?"
I will kneel to my knees, speak softly to my Lord, and allow my tears to be wept
Then through all the fear, doubt, confusion, and apprehension,
I can say, "I prayed hard for you"

Emotionally Drained

I am tired of being treated like dirt all the time
I am tired of trying to help people all the time
I am tired of people who constantly take what you have to give them and then they just take some more
I'm tired of people who are always taking from me
I'm tired of people I can't trust because they have lied to me throughout a relationship
I'm tired of people who say there sorry a million times but over and over again they make the same mistake
I'm tired of people hurting me
I'm tired of giving out my emotions
I am tired of making mistakes

I'm tired of men.....
thats what it comes down too
Men...
they hurt you and use you for everything that you have to offer
they take your love, your money, your time...
they take your grades, they take your friends...
and they still cheat on you!
And they still blame you!
And they still make themselves look like the good guys!
They use you and degrade you and take away your spirituality
I'm tired of men, and I am tired of trying to please them

Thats it, thats my blurb, I hate men...they use and abuse
Beware all women!